Horses and Beggars

It's a wonderful, wonderful opera, except that it hurts
		Joseph Campbell, The Power of Myth

 

We took confetti in our mouths
and wished on everything:
bridges, pennies, cars with one headlight, 
train tracks, matches, first stars.
We were the Corps of Engineers calling out to our veins, Will the dam hold? And the dam was matter.
Under the same old moon, Chögyam Trungpa drank whiskey the color of holy robes. His hands trembled like pages and he said, Whose hands, whose birds are these?
We rode skateboards impossibly fast down the helix of the parking tower and didn't feel the need to repudiate our bodies, and didn't foresee.
The thing of it was time still came back after all that, us scrambling up the banks of the Vermilion with giant flowers on fire in our arms like flags, that night of the surprise frost that caused the bees to waltz from the petals giddy with solidarity as we sang out, "She-loves-me-she-loves-me-not," as we recited mathematics, as compassion stained us like pollen, and we shared the orange juice that was the only thing in the world, as the various shapely contestants for Miss Meaning of the Universe disported for our favor.
Cause and effect, snap, the brutal angels clothed themselves in smoke and lurched away, leaving us with breath and lack, systole and diastole alone in the maw of the world
and we swallowed asked for water
in our bodies as in a large room whose exit we have misplaced
and we and the suns and the rocks were juggled for a while and dropped


Shannon Holman, New York, 1995-1999